It's saturday. I was an experimental guinea pig for my sister trying out threading.

Now there a chunk of my eyebrow is missing.


This is a totally useless post.

warning, emo rant ahead

I was driving my sister to school today (she volunteers there) and I realized how much I hate my life.

Or perhaps I should say that I am not impressed with the current state it is in.

I'm currently living with my parents (my decision, to help take care of my grams with cancer). Which...because of that, I took time off for two semesters of school.

Well, she passed away six months ago (a day after my b-day)

Did I mention I screwed up with my first year of college?

I've always been a smart kid. Top of my class, good head on my shoulders...but I let that get to me and I became arrogant in my abilities. Arrogant to the point of failing two semesters of college.

It's not that I partied, although Disneyland was just down the street from school, but a combination of a graveyard shift job, hypoglycemia, fainting spells, struggling with my bio major, and culture shock took a horrendous toll on me.

And now, I'm currently jobless (because I'm watching my four-year old bro while my parents work), can't get financial aid because of my gpa, friendless (because my family just moved here)..GAH!

At least, I'm getting serious about my art (as it's my major now), and randomly learning html css.

I wish they still made hallucinogenic Absynthe.

hehe..I was naughty and watched Halo Wars spoilers a few days ago.


Ah man....Australia has theirs already...why is the US behind? I mean...Bungie owns the Halo franchise. Just because Ensemble is making it doesn't mean it has to release it later.

Well, it comes out on Tuesday, so I guess that's okay. I pre-ordered it because my sister forced me too.

I bought the most recent Dark Horse Clone Wars issue, and many questions about Ol' Obi-Wan's habits arose.

Bondage

The first (and most prominent) is his knack for getting arrested. It seems like the bearded Jedi cannot resist being incarcerated (or perhaps he enjoys the feeling of metal on his wrists... It should be noted that our writers in charge of Obi-wan's fate have noticed his fetish and decided to have Anakin whip him. (See picture below).

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But wait, there is more! ( Obi Wan's bad habits )

 Oh man. I'm not a big Christian Bale fan, but that F-bomb tirade was...explosive. Kind of ridiculous actually. But, then, someone made it into a song: www.youtube.com/watch. I dance to it sometimes. I feel bad for whoever he was yelling at though. Maybe they shouldn't have been looking at the lights.

Anyway, tomorrow night's Clone Wars episode looks very promising. All this coming right after I challenged Andrew Ryan in Bioshock.

His quote: A man chooses, a slave obeys.

In this episode, a clone figures out he can choose.

But I'm excited! More awesome Rexy-ness AND Cody.

And my computer is being lame AGAIN. The hinge is cracking AGAIN. And I don't want to call Gateway Customer Service AGAIN. And be put on hold for an hour AGAIN.

What ever you do: DO NOT buy a tablet PC from GATEWAY EVER!

This is the second time my com is doing this. The first time it happened, there was a fiasco that caused me to wait like two months for the freaking box to come in for me to ship my com to get it repaired.

Also, the hinge replacement was NOT covered by the warranty and I had to pay $170 dollars for the repair. That's not including the $50 it cost to send the box. 

*sigh*...I wish I had a job again so I can buy a new computer...one that works. I treat my com like I would treat my child (if I had one): with TLC.

and then it turns around and brutally ass-rapes me. twice.

 Oh man, so now, I am completely addicted to Xbox LIVE. I'm already addicted to Halo (since December 2001), but now...I've sold my soul to Masterchief.

I'm so happy. I have two friends now...who aren't my relatives. Sad...I noe...but....hey..hit me up for some Halo or DOA. My gamertag is vickt.

Anyways, CLONE WARS tonight! AND Obi is in it. Maybe even Rexy-boy too.

                                                     but there needs to be more Kit.


I did buy those comics at Atomic Comic, but they were out of the first issue. So I started in media res. I'll see if they have it on Sunday, though.

 Tomorrow (or I guess today since it's 2 am right now) I'm going to Atomic comic to buy comics. Specifically, the Clone Wars: Slaves of the Republic ones. 1-3 are out and 4 comes out next month.  I mean, c'mon. When you have Obi-wan looking like this:



you gotta read it. But then, Rex is in it too. Could it be? I believe Rexy-boy is beginning to replace Obi as my all-time favorite Star Wars character. Impossible. 

I'm gonna make it fair. Obi is my all time-favorite Jedi. Rex is my all-time favorite clone. (Boba doesn't count because he's unaltered.)

So... That makes the list: Jango, Boba, Rex, Cody, Bly, Stone, Gree. Hehe.. One man army, but the right men for the job.


Back in track:

It's about time I bought some new Star Wars comics, anyway. I'm way behind in Knights of the Old Republic and Legacy. 

In fact, that was the last one I bought, Knights of the Old Republic #6 (of the first part). like 3 years ago.

 So early in the morning, I found out that my second all-time favorite artist, Andrew Wyeth, died today. My all-time fav artist is his father N.C. Wyeth. I was a bit down because of that, but, his death has once again inspired me with my art.

It's a bit tragic on my side, though, how two deaths (Wyeth's and my grandmother's) have to inspire me to create more art.

On a more happy note though, Clone Wars ep tonight! It had Aayla, who is pretty damn awesome, though her accent is growing on me. The French Ryloth Twi'lek accent is courtesy of George...who has brought many wise decisions to the GFFA.

(That is a slightly sarcastic remark, but hey, he created Star Wars and I thank him tremendously for that. It's also...my life dream and goal to work at Lucasarts so it's not a good idea to slander my future boss).

Continuing CW review....there was more awesome Rexy-ness and even Bly too! I love the clones...and Jango...and Boba. I wish I was Mandalorian. Okay..magically transport myself to Kamino-land and ask Jango to be my buir. Hehe, then Boba can be my vode, and I get to hang out with the clones.

Mwahahaha!


I am a nerd...

 So I've been playing Halo 3 for the past few days. I never bought it because my cousin had an extra copy. Well, now I got it...and I've been reentranced by the awesomeness of MC.

(side note: I've been a Halo fan since December 2001...when the games first came out. I'm not some 12-yr old noob who started playing last year).

yeah....I'm too lazy to type anymore....

But I did get a ton of stuff down for my Kit/aayla fic so that's going along well.

 So the viewing was today. It was meant for closure for all the relatives here in the States before we bring her back to Guam for burial.

I'm excited too, for going back. I haven't seen my family and friends there for almost two years. Plus, I am sooo legal there, get to drink! 

yeah...so I'm looking forward to that.

I also got a ton of writing done for Dealings on the Smuggler's Moon (kit/aayla centric fic and multi-chapter)! yeah so look for snippets of that in the near future.

 My grandma passed away last night after a hard battle with cancer.

I've dealt with death before (my dad died when I was nine), but I feel strange. I didn't think this would affect me as hard as it is. My faith hasn't been tested (I'm fine with death. I'm not a Christian who believes that only people who are born-again according to a certain standard  go to Heaven. I believe God is the Ultimate Judge. He sees into the hearts of everyone and can truly make a just decision of who goes where.)

Growing up a Catholic, but going to a Christian School, gives rise to conflicting beliefs. I'm in a grey zone of my own. I don't know. How do you respond to a Christian who says that they take joy that their deceased loved ones are born-again and get to go to the Eternal King, but I watch my loved ones pass and can only hope for the best; Take comfort that the Almighty is a just and loving God that knows no boundaries. 

But this isn't a sermon or apologetics speech.

I have a new found spark in my life. Yesterday, I watched someone I love die, as peacefully as we could make her go, but still, to see someone take their last breath and all the strong people (men and women alike) in you family break-down is hard. To be so close to the line between life and death (and life after death).

It's made me question what I am doing with my life. I want it to matter, for it to be worthy of something. I've made tons of mistakes (who hasnt, right) and I basically failed my first year of college. I decided to move with my parents in AZ to focus on school, but things happened. Grams was diagnosed with cancer over the summer, and it seemed like my being there wasn't an accident (and I don't think it is). I took a semester off of school and quit my job to take care of her and my brother.

Now that she's gone though, it's like, "What are you going to do now?"

The family moved from the only life we know on Guam and moved to the mainland US for the reason of Grams' health. Now that reason has gone, and the question for me also is: If they do decide to return, will I be joining them (living a mediocre life with the undervalued education on the Island?) or will I stay here, work my hardest and maybe bring something good back to the Island?

The good thing about this new feeling though is that, I want to make more and more art, and making it better.

 Wow...I made tons (okay there's like 13 here but I'm still making more) of icons. Kinda went on a Clone Wars spree..... I also have a fett obession that extends to every Clone....


Here's a teaser:

        



The rest is here: ( Look's like we got ourselves a bunch of Shinies, Commander )

 I've been watching too much Yo Gabba Gabba! Oh well, at least I got my muse back to work on my projects. I worked on some massive plot for Hellhound, and got a move on kit/aayla. Soon, I'll be able to post up some of HH.

 Ah...hahaha.. I act like so many people read this journal....it's funny.

Here it goes:

Just finished another Halo fic. A short one-shot revolving around the MC and Miranda Keyes.

Captain's log: 0911.2008

hehe...it's been awhile since I posted....but I was right...that lady lied to me...It took three months for fricken Gateway to fix my com. And now guess what? My sister's com has the exact same problem. Ah well, one thing is for certain: I'm not buying another gateway computer.

Captain's Log 0422208

Wow, second entry, almost a month after the first. Pretty much nothing happened in the lovely month of April. I waited three weeks for a box that Gateway was supposed to ship to me to repair my computer only to find out today that they never sent it. Those bastards. I have to manually hold up my com screen to do anything on my laptop. Oh well. At least the box is coming in a few days....unless the lady lied to me after being on hold for ten frickin minutes.

Once my computer gets repaired (it's a convertable tablet and I currently can't flip it for fear of severing the screen) I'll be able to work on art that I've been dying to work on.

seriously. This is gay. I have to lean my com against a surface 90 degrees to the floor or a desk.....

Captain's Log 032808

This is my first entry for livejournal. Hmm it's a new place.....I'm so lost. I've been inspired though to get off my lazy ass and start working on some art. I've just watched half of Star Trek: the Next Generation Season 1 in one sitting and somehow my mind is churning.


Goals:

get started on original comic: Soul Sleep
finalize plot details for original story: Hellhound (working title)
get a move on kit/aayla fic: Dealings on the Smuggler's Moon.
oh yeah, one other thing, put up an avatar...seriously.